And it probably never will be.
Simply because we tend to be our biggest critics.
And see things that other people will probably never even pay attention to.
And compare ourselves to the best out there.
Criticizing yourself is a form of hiding.
It helps you to protect yourself from failure.
But hiding is never a good long term strategy.
Because sooner or later you'll be found.
No matter how hard you try to avoid it...
And when that happens you'd better be able to run as fast as you can.
So instead of using your time and energy to keep hiding, use it to become a better runner...