I celebrated my 18th birthday yesterday.
And this year I'm turning 32.
That's at least what it feels like.
I still remember my 18th birthday party like it was yesterday. On the other hand it took me almost 5 minutes to remember what I had for lunch yesterday.
Time travels fast. Just like life goes by fast. Sometimes it feels like life travels at the speed of light.
Sometimes if feels like life is traveling on the back of its buddy time at the speed of light towards the sun. And then without even noticing it your life is almost over. It gets closer and closer to the sun. Until one day you realize that your candle almost completely burned down already..
You know, a lot of people talk about living life like there's no tomorrow. I get it. It's a good concept. But implementing it is hard. And it doesn't work from one day to the next. You can't just leave your family behind. Or your job. Or your kids. Or your parents. Or whatever.
That's not how it works. At least not for most of us. At least not for me.
It only works one step at a time. One day at a time. And it starts with one second a day of living life like there's no tomorrow. And then you keep adding a second every single day. Until it makes an entire day. Until you can live life like there's no tomorrow.
But it only works when you start working towards that goal. The goal of being able to live life like there's no tomorrow. And maybe one magical day you might be able to live like there's no tomorrow.
Maybe one day I might be able to live like there's tomorrow. But until then, there's still some steps to take. Some things to do. So I try to do those things every day. To get closer to living life like there's no tomorrow. And I struggle with all of them. Every single day..
# Don't answer the phone
Whenever someone calls and I don't want to talk to them, I just don't answer the phone. Maybe I'll call back. Maybe I won't. It's hard. Because then people might think I don't want to talk to them. Which might be true. And then I have to remind myself to live like there's no tomorrow. No more wasting time talking to people I don't want to talk to.
# The first step
99% of the people don't go that first step. It's an ego thing. I think. Whenever you take that first step you might be the one to blame. You might be the one who'll get rejected. And rejection is never easy. So I try to make that first step. Every once in a while. I just don't want things to fall apart only because of that one first step that was never taken. Just because I was too scared of that first step. Or because my ego told me to not apologize. You know, it's ok when things fall apart. After that second, third or fourth step. If things fall apart before anyone did that first step it's just a waste of opportunities. And happiness..
# Don't meet people
I try to not meet people who I don't want to meet. There are many different reasons for this. The most important one is that I'm selfish. If I think it's going to be a waste of my or the other person's time I say no. I don't want to waste my time talking to someone I don't want to talk to. After all, this could be my last day. So why waste it with someone I don't want to talk to? One step at a time..
# Limited time
Everybody's time on this planet is limited. So I try to spend more time with people I really care about. People who are getting closer to their finish line. I do this for selfish reasons. Well, sort of. I do it because I don't want to regret that I didn't spend enough quality time with those people. The people I really care about. I don't want any unresolved issues. Because at one point there might be no time left to solve those issues..
# Meet people
I struggle with this a lot. Meeting up with folks who give me energy instead of meeting people who suck all the energy out of me. First of all I struggle hard with taking that first step. That first step to ask people if they want to meet up. But what's even more important is to find those people who give you energy in the first place. That's even harder. To take the little energy that might be left to find the people who give you energy..
# Talk good behind people's backs
You know, a lot of people talk bad behind people's backs. So whenever someone talks bad about someone who's not in the room I try to talk good behind their backs. Or try to figure out why they acted this or that way. Why they are the way they are. Because there's always a good reason and a real reason. The good reason makes our own lives easier. The real reason usually makes it a lot more complicated and involves a lot of emotions and empathy. You know all of this hard stuff we're trying to run away from. So a good (and easy) reason why someone screwed up is that this person is just lazy. The real reason is a lot more complicated and usually involves some more personal problems. So I try to keep that is mind every once in a while. I try to keep my eyes open for the real reasons..
The only way to REALLY live like there's no tomorrow is to work on your independence. To not work for the man. Or to work for the man and the man needs you more than you need her. I think that's real freedom. To be able to work on your own stuff. On your legacy. Whatever that might be. And that's what's really hard. It doesn't work over night. It might take many years. Maybe forever. I don't know. But that's the essence of it all. I think. Even if it's just 5 minutes a day. Even if you're just working on buying yourself some freedom and independence for 5 minutes a day it's already worth it. And then you carve out 5 more minutes. Until you've carved out a beautiful statue out of all the debris out there..
I try to be grateful for all the amazing things that happen in my life. And happened in my life already. Sure, some times are rougher than others. And sometimes I remember to be grateful. And sometimes I forget to be grateful. Even though it takes less than 2 minutes to list all of the things I'm grateful for. I usually try to be grateful for everything that happened to me during the past day. Like the people I've talked to. The food I ate. The things I've seen. And many more things.
Gratitude makes me feel good. It helps me to appreciate the things I have. Instead of focusing on the things I don't have..