I don't know if you've ever experienced this.
You're in a country where you either look different, speak another language or don't really know how to behave properly. Or all of it at the same time.
It always feels like everybody else is staring at you. Even if they don't. It always feels like they do. Especially when you're riding a train.
It's a very, very discomforting feeling when people stare at you because you're different. It happens to me all the time when I travel. Especially on trains.
Luckily, I'm in a position where I know why people look at me. I just know.
They look at me and they know that I won the lottery ticket in life. That I was so pretty damn fortunate to have been born in a rich country. They know. Still, people staring at you feels very uncomfortable.
Even if they don't stare at me. It always feels like they do. I think we humans tend to think that quite a lot.
Now here's the thing I've been asking myself recently.
How does it feel like when everybody else on the train stares at you and they all know that you're the only one on the train who didn't win the lottery ticket in life? That you're someone with a less fortunate background.
I don't even want to think about how it must feel like when everybody else looks at you and they all know that you're the only person on this train who did not win the lottery ticket in life.
Just having to think about it makes me feel very uncomfortable and scares the shit out of me..