Doing new things is probably one of the toughest things out there.
No matter how big or small these things are.
I struggle with it every single time I'm doing something I've never done before.
And instead I constantly go back to doing things that are familiar.
Things I've already done before.
Things that are easy.
Things I know.
Things where nothing can go wrong.
Where it's safe.
Look. There is no such thing as "flow".
Flow is when you only do things you're familiar with.
When you never do new things.
When you're doing the same things over and over again.
When you never leave your comfort zone.
But then again.
I'm no scientist.
And I have never read a single article about it.
So I don't know anything about it.
Still, sometimes I think to myself f*ck you flow.
And everybody who writes or talks about it.
And I'm asking myself "have you people who are writing or talking about "flow" ever done anything that's outside your comfort zone? When was the last time you did something new? Something hard? Something challenging?"
Doing new things is hard.
Doing the same things over and over again is easy.
It's hard for me to intellectually understand what's going on (that my lizard brain wants to hold me back) and at the same I just can't fight it.
It's like I know exactly what I should be doing but I just can't.
It's like my mind and body are trying to sabotage me.
It's like they've signed an agreement to trick me out of doing new things. Hard things. Uncomfortable things. Things I might fail at...
So instead of finishing that thing that should take any sane person an hour or two, it takes me an entire day.
Or maybe even two.
And instead of working on it and getting it done (or starting it) I go outside and get a coffee.
Or an icecream.
Or I take a nap and pray that I have more willpower after that nap to fight it.
Needless to say I never have enough will power.
Also, hoping and praying is never a good strategy...
So most of the time I just go back to doing things that I'm familiar with.
The things that are relatively easy for me now.
Like writing this right here...
Still, there's no other way.
There's no other way to grow.
To bring me to the next level.
To bring you to the next level.
To fight my inner laziness.
To fight your inner laziness.
I have to wrestle with it.
I have to dance with it.
Especially when I'm not in the mood to dance with it.
The only way to get what you want in life is to do more of the things you don't necessarily feel like doing.
And it's ok if you lose a battle every once in a while.
As long as you keep pushing and don't give up.
As long as you keep dancing with it.
As long as you keep wrestling.
No matter how big or small your progress.
You've gotta keep dancing.
I've gotta keep dancing.
We all gotta keep dancing.
Or else at one point we will all stop dancing.
And a world without people dancing would be a very, very sad place.
We all gotta keep dancing...
[Related: I stopped giving a shit a long time ago]